Bipolar.

No i'm not really bipolar. that's just weird.
When I read things like "Outside i'm smiling, inside i'm dying" or something like that, i used to think that it won't really happen to me. Not in a suicidal way anyway. When you're angry, you're angry, when you're sad, you're sad and when you're happy you're happy right?

when i think back on all the reactions i've given to people, it sorta makes me think that this really HAS happened to me. and i think it's getting worse, since I'm more in touch with my emotional side since i've reached the defining age between adulthood and teenagehood;  18.
sometimes, i fool even myself.
sometimes i wouldn't even be sure if i was happy, ecstatic, sad, anguished.. and because of that sometimes i don't even know what expression or reaction to give :/

i don't even make sense. = =

Heaven, Hell and the Rapture

A friend shared this link on facebook about a teenage South American girl named Angelica Zambrano who testifies to have been shown Hell, Heaven the and the coming of Christ (read article here.) Though, I really encourage you who is reading this to skip the rest I’m about to say and just read the article. It’s long, but don’t let that stop you from reading it till the end. I did, and halfway through, it started pouring. Thunder, lightning, everything. I wanted to share the article of Twitter, Facebook and here but the lightning temporarily distorted my wifi. Bah. Though I managed to share it on fb. The I prayed, "God, please let the wifi work so I can share this online." And a few refreshes later, viola! The internet came back! and now, i'm typing this on blogger.

At first I was kinda skeptical about this girl's testimony. But as I read her words and the Lord's, I began to feel more afraid; more worried about what is going to happen to me, my family and my friends when Christ comes. I sort of relate to Angelina when she said she wanted God to change her but felt no change; even though time have passed. And when she attended a 15 day fast with her family, she said that everyone felt God speaking to them except herself! Sometimes, I often wonder what it's like for God to speak to you. What do you hear? What do you feel? Do you cry? Weep? Faint? I don't know. And sometimes I want God to speak to me; to tell me his plans for my future, to just talk to me! But then, sometimes, I'm afraid of what God will tell me; afraid that his plans aren't in sync with mine. Although, I tell Him that it's okay and that I leave everything to Him, but deep down, I'm praying and hoping that it's what I've always wanted. I'm sounding pretty selfish, aren't I? But, that's how we are. Selfish.

I was pretty shocked (not really) to know that cartoons like Pokemon, Ben 10, etc can cause a child to sin. It's not that oblivious really. Television cause children to be rebellious. I would know. I was a tv addict when I was younger. Now, I'm a FB/Twitter addict. Bah. Need to kick that addiction. = =
So, when children are rebellious, they sin against their parents, and indirectly sin against God. For it is written in the 10 commandments: "Honour your father and mother..." (the rest depends on which version of the Bible you're reading)

Many truths have been showed to me about Heaven and Earth and the Rapture. Read the article and you'll know. And I'm pretty sure many of the things written there will surprise you, if not shock you.
I must warn you, you may not believe a single word coming from this girl's lips. But, I believe. I believe every single word she has spoken. If it may not be true, then may God deal with that. But there's nothing to loose by believing right? It's your choice.
God is real. And Hell is real too. Even more real than you think. So, come back to Him. Don't let your obsessions take his place; money, power, pride, ego, music, public figures, objects of desire. All these things do not exist without God. And so do you.

You're nothing without God.
Nothing.

21 more days

no, this has nothing to do with my bias female kpop group. There are approximately 21 more days till i go to college. it's really saddening really. KL is really hectic (not that I'm living in KL) I'm just gonna really miss the slow, peaceful town of Ipoh and it's inhabitants; namely, my friends. :(
I'm not really all that eager to start college, nor do I not want to go. The campus is HUGE! like... 5 times bigger than Taylor's Lakeside. And apparently, the block i'm staying in is on the other end of the campus. fantastic. talk about a 10 minutes walk between class and room. Bah.
But on the plus side... the guy:girl ratio there is like 3:1. hehehehe.

this is my university. heh

as you can see, i wasn't kidding when I said it's 5 times bigger than TLC (Taylor's Lakeside Campus) we have our very own lake too! and DUCKS!! and... tons of oil palm trees.
here's a clearer picture:

blogging about the uni I'm going to is making me excited about my first year there :D

So, 2011 SPM-ers, do consider coming here :D all you need is just a minimum of 5 Bs and you're in! Oh and did i mention we have our very own Hoodie? hehehehehe..
I'll be here for... 3 years-ish? So yeah.
I wonder if I'll get my first boyfriend there? mehehehhehehe

What say You?

Yello! :D
Today... I'm gonna do some advertising, so here are some of the few stuffs :D click the link if you're interested! :)

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okay honestly, i don't know how to do this. :/ okay i'll do it this way then. Mind you, some of the campaigns i'm advertising may not be available to those out of Malaysia :)

1. Clean and Clear (the.. facial brand(?)) is having a contest (sort of). click here to go to the fb page for more info
   You could:
   *star in a seventeen magazine shoot with a pair of celeb BFFs
   *win cash prizes, cool gadgets and a one year's supply of Clean & Clear products (that's a LOT)
   *and bag exclusive invites to the clean & clear confidence make over!
   
2. Save Malaysia, Stop Lynas.
   Okay, i'm not so sure about this one. I did some research on this, and Lynas claims that it's brings no harm to nature & humans. But i'm not so sure, cause people will say or do anything to get their way. BUT if it is true, then what the heck, skip this one. But, if it DOES bring hazardous outcomes to our country and it's people and nature, then by all means, click here. Mind you, this decision is ENTIRELY UP TO YOU. no pressure :)
   
3. EARTH HOUR 2012!!
   whooo the video is OUT people! XD can't wait to experience a one hour black out for the sake of our earth :D click here to watch the video. WHEEEEE!
   
4. ANGRY BIRDS!!
   YESH PEOPLE (to malaysians) We are attempting to create a GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS™ for the Most People Playing in a Mobile Phone Game Relay. Come make history, join in the fun and win fantastic prizes! All happening on 11 June 2011 at Boulevard Strip, Low Yat Plaza, KL from 11am - 9pm. The date is set, the birds are ready, the record awaits! click here to sign up!
   

sorry i just HAD to put this up coz it's too cute XD and doesn't it get you into the Angry Birds mood? HAAHA

yeah that's about it.
Going for Panda tomowz with the peeps!

Finally a Movie

Yeah, as the title states, I finally went to the movies after who knows how long. Went to Mary Ann's mama's art studio in the morning with my mama and left for JJ at.. 12pm ish. Had sushi king for lunch, met Alexis and her Edmund (girl did you dye your hair again? LOL) yeah then.. Mary Ann and I proceeded Sox World with the intention to buy new socks, but being a rational, thrifty (sort of) shopper, I didn't buy the socks which were like... $4 ish a PAIR? crazy. yeah so we went to the magazine shop and i bought some reading material then we proceeded to one of them benches in front of Fitness Concept and chilled while we flipped through the mags i bought earlier. Then Jia Loon came along and joined us in the chilling and we (mary ann and jia loon) chatted for awhile until Philemon popped up. He was wearing this funny looking shirt of a baby with shades and a beanie on (do NOT remind me of the 'beanie" = =).

since we had nothing to do for like an hour plus, we decided to shoot aliens and rock it out in capcom. Jialoon and mary ann shot aliens while Phil and I jammed on the Guitar game thingie. then jia loon played the drums game, and after him, i played. XD zomg. tiring.
after that, we still had some time left so we went to shoot some hoops on the other side of capcom. laughed so hard coz Phil kept cracking jokes about BALLS. so if your mind is dirty enough, you'll get what we mean. HAHAHA anyway, after finishing our tokens, we went to get popcorn and coke. thanks Jialoon for paying!!

and we watched....
PIRATES!!

there were hilarious parts, chair gripping parts.. it was a combination of emotions literally. i didn't expect anything out of the movie anyway. and we sat through the WHOLE credits just to watch the 30 second ish extra scene. wth. LOL. so embarrassing. the cleaners were cleaning up and stuff while we were still sitting there; deciding whether if we should leave or not. and when the extra scene came up, they turned off the lights for us XD awwhhh that's nice. and after it finished, they turned it back on. lol

thennnnn we went for dinner at Takahashi while Phil had to go and fetch his mom somewhere. though, after the movie my chest hurt. like my heart was being smothered. literally. :/ and i wasn't feeling sad or whatever. lasted till 10pm-ish. gosh. is this what they call "heart burn"?
so anyway, had dinner, couldn't finish mine so mary ann and i switched our meals. rofl. then phil came back and he couldn't stop molesting the menu = =
we talked, and talked, and teased phil on his AMERICAN ACCENT, and talked some more till past 6pm and we headed out to walk around JJ. hung around padini till 6.45pm and mary ann left. then the 3 of us went to have a look at S&J and finally, we decided to go home too.

WELL! that was a loonnnggg daaayyyyyy... sorry no photos. :/ jia loon and i decided not to bring our cams coz we feel paiseh. like those epic fail people who hang them around them everywhere they go. but honestly, I do that too. coz right, i'm real lazy to put it in the bag, then take it out when i want to use it, then put it back in again. so mafan you know? haha oh and i made these just now for a friend :

i made this a while back. like.. a few days ago?
friend said it looks like an album cover XD
awesomeee~

so what do you think? :S